The Equinox of a little dream: Road Trip

I WANTED TO GO TO THE ISLAND.

But he gave me so many excuses.

Okay so he claimed it wasnt excuses but he was just thinking those so called 'excuses' that might happen. He says, the weather might get bitchy,mom might call and check where i am and the boat coming back from the island is at 4pm and he wont want me to freak out in the island. LOL

My counter-back reasons that made him pissed off after i say 'WE ARE NOT GOING' & 'FORGET IT BONN,I DONT WANT TO GO'..

1. WTF,i already told mom i gt 'class' until 4.45pm

2. I already prepared all the stuff for picnic. DUH...

3. I woke up early without being mad & feel annoyed

4. and,dude i really wanted to hang out with you :(

i know i be leaving like in a few days time. and he just got back from kuching.its been 2 days already as of today , and 'a short period of time' we both didnt see each other. Well, its not the TAHAP GABAN kerinduan if anyone might say. So let me put it this way, i got this feeling that i might have him away from me for a long long time. I dont know why the hell do i have this kind of thoughts.

And let me cut it short, we then get pissed off and almost at the tip of BLOWING each other's head off.Yet,it was almost.

We sat down in Mint Vietnamese restaurant and he eventually tried to 'pujuk' me. LOL. I am too much being a 'missy' i guess. HAHA. And i gave in and everything went okay and we did talk about understanding and actually we talked what we actually intended to.

My intention of showing my sour face :

1. Its okay if he doesnt want to go, i CAN go by myself.

2. His sour face. Facial expression as if he is totally worned out.

3. I hate people who give hesitate answer and nod with a annoyed face.

His HEAD:

1. He say he is okay whatever i plan on but i am a PLEASER! (i do think so!)

2. He try to recall back on whatever statement i said to him before. And processing each word i say right at the moment. Amending which is true or facts.

3. He wants me to decide where actually i am so concerned he wont like my idea.FCUK.

We drove to Jesselton Point car park,parked the car but didnt turn off the engine.We sat inside the car and i flip over the Tallisman book he borrow for me. He explained it will be better if we go for other stuff like 'road trip'. Basically, i am dead tired to argue or to say no. We drove up to Tuaran Crocodile farm and spent 3 hours there discovering. It was fun at the end. Those picnic junks bought earlier we ate it throughout the journey.

Crocodile Farm

1.BEAUTIFUL Koi fish

2. Crocodile show -AWESOME-

3. Cultural show -Bored-

4. Mumified & Waxed horses,crocodile,tembadau (exotic cow) -COOL-

5.Fed the deers,catfishes,koi fish,& a baby monkey! -FUN-

At the end, there is something more meaningful, which is enjoyed something beautiful within unperfection.

I always remind myself to never put hopes & too much attention on the disease of love. Somehow it just dont justify what you recieve.And yes it true,its better to give rather than to take. But too much giving and less compromise is practically idiot.

Bonn, its not easy to jaga you. :)

Before ending up my complain on bloggy today,below are some picture i bluetooth from him :)

*Some pictures we took while visiting crocodile farm :)