It made me think

okay...this week was busy.Not as in busy with my stuff, but instead with bonn. So its like dedicating this week for him.Since its his first week to work, i guess i have the obligation to 'push' him for working. Yeah, i admit, we do have this sneaky plan to get out from the office, but because there is nothing much can be done after all (ALASAN!).. Well, the company bonn is working with now belongs to Andy, another friend of ours. And thats one of the reason, i've been like lepaking in the office. Not just waiting for bonn, or was it, but just that it amuse me sometimes to sit down and talk with Andy. Yeap, he is that kind of person who really talks, gentleman in his own sway, and he talk business like a china men but deals with a more sensible way. And he is that kind of person who can make me praise alot! (Whatever other might say about him,.which previously i heard about. AHhhh..bullshits!) Andy is my senior in Uni, and old time friend of bonn from high school. So we are friends in a way and yet between Andy and Bonn, there is this boss thingy (You do get me right?)

with bonn at apink's birthday & open house 2009

yeah, and we did get out today from the office, went to 1B to watch 2012. And it fascinates me about the true meaning of the movie, or would i say the panel writers and director for the movie. The question here states where does we go with all those predicted catrostrophic? how can humanity brings along us together despite the feud between religion, belief and our skin color? and is the apocalypse true? well, only God knows. It do freak me out while watching it but it gives me another second thought whether on what limitation in life has for each of us?



Let me just leave behind the disaster who scientics predicts to be in future. For myself, life has to be prioritized. Family, loves one, friends, others.. and so on.. There is nothing can be done true what is on the screen right now. Just let the tsunami wipe us away.



While was driving out from likas, i was on my way to Cock and Bull, it suddenly came out from no where in my head. I had this thinking. 'WHO IS YOUR BEST LISTENER?''



The best listener is ourself. Our own self who had live in this body binding with the soul.

Who shall accept those bad and good thoughts and thinking, non other than us?



We drive our own thinking. Build by enviroment,conclude by action. And learn through those wrong interpretation of life.



So what if life sucks? so what if there is no more money? while you complain life isnt perfect, blame oneself, because it was all started from the way we think.



And through all these thinking and thounghts, we listen patienly. We listen deeply with detail.



We dont spread our secrets openly,neither do we cry hard with people we could trust less. Yet the one who always will comfort us with the best way is ourself.



Somehow there is people, who are blinded with following instincts. Instincts that are merely true. Jeopardizing life and hurting more feelings. I am not sure, but i know karma wins.

Que Sera Sera Amigos

okay so..i FORGOT my password on twitter. yea it means there is divine intervention asking me to less gossip or less boasting.hahahahahah yea..WTF.

What a hectic day i had today. Wake up after less than 3 hour sleep. =) *good* ..Went for breakfast with my cousin and aunt before heading home to finish my islam & management assignment. Went out again at 11am to attend some big shot's daughter's wedding. Uhh..how i hate weddings. Because you just have to act as if you are friendly but the thing is you are sweating like in hell, your body is like giving out those bad odours that you just want to rush back home and shower. Na, js that i am a depending-on-situation kinda person. I am choosy when things just aint right in my mood.

For example, last night, Vivian PM me asked about business law assignment. I find it annoying. Because :

1. I havent done it yet
2. I am so not in the mood of talking or replyin
3. Its pissing me off asking things repeatedly
4. I ask myself 'is she that dumb to find out herself?'

And i just regain my own consciousness that i was being rude tellin her off not to bug me, or else its really gonna pissed me off. Which yes i did, i PISSED OFF. She felt terribly and send me a msg shortly after i appear offline saying she is sorry. Haha. Im sorry too =)

You know, there is some people out there that doesnt deserve to be pity?

Whether they are called as good friends? Bad friends? Worse friends? The fact is when you treat them god regardless who they are at that time, they just dont appreciate it or they ignore or neglected it. And yes, WAT THE FUCK,?

I am not writtin to pour my sensibleness or assume it is my UNsensible-ness tonite, just that i am trying to remind myself, some people just aint worth it.

I know i may not be the WHO and WHO to be proud of about, or shall i say WHO AM I? to be saying like this? Yes, i protect my friends, and thats my treasure for people who treat me good. I keep and make sure people i love,people i call FRIENDS safe and sound. Hinder them from worriness or harm.

And when one day you find me talking bad behind you, its because you dint realize it was your decision to lose a friend like me.

But yeah..currently everything just seems okay. Not bad. People, *hopefully* are growing maturedly and having their mind fix before jumping into any conclusion in anything they do. Because despite in today's world, with all kind of stuff and things invented for goodness sake, mankind are still selfish ignoring their faults. I am one of them. Sarcasticly i am.

Love Karmen =)